Saturday, April 28, 2007

Nowhere to be Found

I have done absolutely no writing over the past few weeks. Ok, I can't say no writing, since I actually wrote a whole 3 pages of my current WIP the other day, but ask anyone who knows me, and they'll say this occurrence is down-right unnatural.
I don't know what's going on, but I intend to rectify this situation. From the 14th to the 18th of May, RWAus are having this little party known as BIAW, or Book in a Week. It's where you nominate a number of words you intend to write and then spend all week sitting in front of your computer wondering what on earth made you think it was a good idea -- No! Not really. It's actually a really good idea. And if only I actually had time to sit down and write a whole book in a week.
I've nominated myself for 15,000 words. Which I guess is about 60 pages. I think (hope) that once I get into the swing of things, I won't have too much trouble getting this done. Although, if my recent performance is anything to go by, then I might be in a whole lotta trouble.
Anyhoo, we'll see what happens.
In other news, I've been sending more letters to agents, and other query letters to publishers, so I suppose I haven't been totally useless. I swear, I'm going to get a publishing contract this year, even if I have to type so much that I get blisters on my fingers and I bleed from the ears from using my brain too much (isn't that a lovely image?).
Also, Cafrine's website is undergoing a transformation. Of course I know what's happening to it, but I'm not going to tell! You'll just have to wait with bated breath until next week when all will be unveiled (hopefully).
Otherwise, I'd better start getting myself back into the swing of writing before BIAW arrives and bites me in the butt.

Tuesday, April 17, 2007


Yes, I am still here, though you wouldn't know it if you've dropped in at any time over the past week. Nothing interesting has happened, nothing at all. I didn't get abducted by fluro pink elves who took me to their fluro underground lair and tried to sacrifice me (being sacrificed is classier than being killed, according to El Deano. And yes, I have been visiting the TWoP forums... so what? If you want to blame someone for that, I'd start by looking in Cafrine's direction) to their hot pink fairy god in exchanged for blue and purple fairy floss.
So I have absolutely nothing to say, no TTT, no quote of the week, nothing even remotely entertaining to write about. This was just to say that yes, I've been AWOL.

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Top Ten Tuesday - Ten Moments That Made Me Cry

As promised, my TTT of moments that made me cry. Cafrine also decided to get in on the action and do one of her own. I'm sure she's going to totally show me up on this one, since last I heard she had about 25 moments and was trying to shorten it down to 10. I thought this list was going to be easy as, but when I actually sat down to write it, I kept coming up short. Nonetheless, I did make it. As usual, there are spoilers abound...

10) Robin Hood, the Disney cartoon version – Ok, kinda dumb, and it certainly doesn’t make me cry any more, but when I was a kid, the end of this movie never failed to set me off. You see, in the end, the castle Robin Hood (who was a fox) is in catches fire and he has to jump into the moat. And of course he doesn’t come back up, and Little John (a bear) is standing on the bank with Maid Marian (also a fox, lucky for her and Robin Hood. Somehow, she was cousin to King Richard, even though he and Prince Edward were Lions. When I was a kid, that never bothered me, but now? Weird). Anyway, they all think Robin Hood is dead, and so do I, so I cry, even though I must have watched that movie a zillion times (and I’m not exaggerating. I have it on DVD, I still watch it all the time. The music… it’s just so good), I still cried every time. But not anymore. Well, not much anyway.

9) Everafter – Yes, yes, it’s a sappy girly movie, just another version of Cinderella. But when Danielle (played by Drew Barrymore and brilliant) is out-ed as not being an aristocrat at the ball, I cried so much. She was in the beautiful angel costume and despite saying he loved her, the prince (who’s name I can’t remember right now) didn’t stand up for her when he learned the truth (bastard!) but luckily he made up for it later on!

8) Romeo & Juliet – I wasn’t really a Leo DiCaprio fan (until I saw The Departed recently. Boy, can that kid act, and do intense like you wouldn’t believe. Now I have to take him seriously), except who didn’t cry when they saw this movie? The bit that always makes me cry the most (apart from the end when they get their wires crossed and kill themselves) is when Romeo’s best friend, Mercurio, gets shot and then curses both their houses. That scene was done just brilliantly.

7) Stargate SG1 7.18 Heroes Part 2 – In the end of part 1, we know someone’s died, and the clever, clever writers try to lead us to believe its Jack (but of course I didn’t fall for it, because, well, it’s Jack. They’re not just going to kill him off), and throughout this whole episode, you pretty much have no idea who it is. Daniel has it all on tape, and the nosey documentary-maker is trying to find out what happened… can’t you see they’re all upset? One of their friends is DEAD you moron! Ahem. Anyhoo, towards the end, we see Daniel’s tape and find out that it was Doctor Fraser who had died (which I totally never got over. She was such a great character, and as much respect as I have for Lexia Doig [after all, she did manage to land one of the hottest guys ever] she’s just never going to make up for Doctor Fraser). Then they have the memorial in front of the gate…and everyone was all teary, and it was just so damn sad. Oh, and I just have to say, getting away from the whole tear-factor, part 1 of these 2 eps had one of the best Jack-quotes ever: “I hope shots of my ass serve you well.” Classic.

6) Dark Angel 1.21 And Jesus Brought A Casserole – I only just saw this, so it’s still pretty raw. Max and the other X5s decide they’re going to go in and take down Manticore, they’re sick of spending their lives on the run, and figure if Manticore is no more, there won’t be any reason for the government to hunt them down (I’m sure they’ve got that a bit wrong, but I haven’t seen the second season yet). So they do it. They go in, set explosives in the place and then make their way out again, except Max goes back to stop Brenna who was going to try and foil their plan. On the way out, Max runs into a clone of herself, an X7, and gets shot, straight through the heart. Now, this part wasn’t the bit that made me cry, not even when Logan found her and was all like “Max! No! NOOOO!” The bit that got me was when they took her back into the compound, along with Zach who’d also been shot. They try to revive her, but her heart’s been too badly damaged. Zach manages to get a gun and demands they transplant her. Except the only heart they can transplant into her is another X5’s, not any old heart. And then Zach starts saying “fight them, Max. Make sure you fight them for me!” And I started going, “wait, what are you going to do?!?!” And then next thing Zach shoots himself in the head so they can use his heart to save Max. The ultimate sacrifice, so touching, had me crying so much.

5) Farscape 2.22 Die Me, Dichotomy – Scorpy’s neural clone has taken over Crichton’s mind, and he tries to escape. Aeryn goes after him, and Scorpy-Crichton crashes into her plane and she has to eject. Except her eject seat lands in a lake and she drowns. Crichton gains control long enough to listen to her go down. Later, they have the funeral, and its heart breaking. Crichton’s tied up, because they don’t know if and when he’ll turn into Scorpy-Crichton again. As he looks down into her coffin (or whatever the thing she was in was called) you can just tell he was thinking he might as well have taken a gun and shot her, because it was his fault that she was dead. I also cried when Zhaan died (though not too much, coz I didn’t like her very much), but this was much worse. I also cried when Cricthton died… and when Aeryn went to that planet of seers because she wanted to see him again… ok, I cried a lot throughout this whole series, but if you go and watch it, you’ll know why.

4) Stargate SG1 5.21 Meridian – All I have to say is that Daniel died… Or Ascended… or whatever he did. Either way, he was gone, and certainly not coming back. Fans everywhere cried, they ranted ‘what’s the point of watching Stargate if Michael Shanks is no longer on it?’ They started up websites, they wrote letters and eventually MS came back, and everyone was happy. But then we went back and watched that ep again. And despite knowing that he wasn’t gone for good, despite knowing he was coming back, we still cried. When he and Jack are talking, just before he goes and Jack’s like “where are you going?” and Daniel’s reply was “I don’t know, but I’m ok about it.” (or something to that effect) just gets me every time.

3) Brokeback Mountain – This movie was so raw, and so confronting. People either loved it or hated it. Personally, I loved it. Both Heath Ledger and Jake Gyllenhaal were brilliant. All I wanted was a HEA (happily ever after) for them. I just wanted them to ranch up somewhere together and raise horses and live HEA. But of course it wouldn’t have been so brilliant if they’d got their HEA. When Jack was killed and Einas was left with it, it was so sad. Then, when Einas went to Jack’s parents house and found the shirt hanging in Jack’s wardrobe with the blood on it that he’d thought he’d lost from that first summer, I cried and cried. For a while, Cafrine had an avatar of those shirts on her yahoo messenger, and every time I saw it, I got teary. Just a bit.

2) Grey’s Anatomy 2.34 Detoriation of the Fight or Flight Response – The last ep of the season and the reason why every time I heard Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol I cried for about six months after. Meredith and McDreamy had to put their dog down, it had cancer (I think, I was too busy crying). I’m unreasonably attached to my puppy, Molly, so the thought of having to put her to sleep had me bawling. Then Izzy manipulated things so that Denny would have to get an emergency heart-transplant, then Denny asked Izzy to marry him, then he went off into the theatre. Then Burke got shot, and looked like he wasn’t going to make it. Then Denny was ok, but then suddenly he died. Izzy turned up in her princess gown, all ready to tell him she’d marry him, except he was dead and no one had realized yet. Then they started playing Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol. Over this song, they showed Izzy lying next to Denny, and man, I’m gonna cry just thinking about it again. So basically I spent an hour crying, and every time I heard that song for so long after.

1) Buffy 2.22 Becoming Part 2 – After spending the night together, Angel looses his soul and becomes Angelus, then starts tormenting Buffy and her friends. In this ep, the Scoobies have come up with a plan to restore Angel’s soul, while Angelus is off planning mayhem. In the end, Buffy and Angelus are facing off as a Demon awakens. Just as the demon begins sucking everything into hell, Willow completes the spell and Angel is back. Except it’s too late. The only way to close the portal to hell is to kill Angel, since it was his blood that opened it. Angel falls to his knees, his soulful chocolate eyes full of tears. Just when we think they’re going to have a tear-worthy reunion, Buffy stabs him in the heart and sends him to hell. No matter how many times I watch it, it still makes me cry.

I'm planning on doing a TTT favorite opening scenes next, but I don't know if I'll get it done for next tuesday or not, I've got a very busy week ahead, so I'll see how we go!

Thursday, April 5, 2007

A Page at a Time

So its Easter again, and in my home town, that's no small thing. Good Friday and Easter Monday are public holidays (4 day weekend, WOO!), and there's a huge Easter festival that goes for the whole entire weekend, complete with parade on Monday. Starting tomorrow morning there's a book fair at the YMCA, and the books are selling for next to nothing. Seriously, you can get a whole bag of books for less than twenty bucks, Its great and I go with my sister-in-law every year. Of course, every book-enthusiast for fifty miles goes as well, there's lots of scrapping and elbowing and shoving going on, but it's all part of the fun.
Anyhoo, quote of the week:

"I believe we choose our own destiny."

This was said by Max on Dark Angel. Meanwhile, I'm still waiting for season 2 to be returned to my local video store so I can hire it out and watch the rest of it. I thought this quote was interesting. You see, I always believed that destiny was thrust upon you, that no matter what you did, it would eventually catch up with you and put you where you're meant to be. But this quote got me wondering. Maybe it's more that destiny is presented to you and it's up to you whether or not you choose that path, or continue on doing whatever's safest or easiest.
Whichever it happens to be, it still makes you wonder about your choices. Like if I had of gone right instead of left 3 years ago, where would I be now? And are there really alternate universes out there where other versions of ourselves are living with the opposite choices we made? Are we only one in a million possible outcomes to what our lives could have been? Ok, we're getting a bit into the twilight zone with that stuff, but sometimes I do wonder.

Tuesday, April 3, 2007

Top Ten Tuesday - Ten Favourite Moments from a TV Show / Movie

So, it's Tuesday again. Where do the days go?
Well anyway, this week I do actually have a TTT (because I wrote it last Thursday) and what a shock, I'm actually posting it on Tuesday. I may have already said, but I've decided to stick with the TV/Movie theme for a little while. The reason being is because it's easy and I don't have to think about it too much.
Meanwhile this week I've been watching Dark Angel on DVD. I kept hearing about how good it was, so decided to check it out for myself. Luckily, the rumours were true and I've been thoroughly enjoying it. I love the post-apocalyptic America theme they've got going on. Very interesting. Many people have told me how much they love Logan, and I can see where they're coming from, however for some reason the actor (Michael Weatherly) reminds me of a less-intense version of Michael Shanks (who plays Daniel Jackson in Stargate), and that's all I keep thinking when I'm watching it. I mean, there was this ep where he was thinking about killing himself, because he didn't want to live his life in a wheel-chair, and the only thing I could think was "well, that's gonna piss Max off." If it had of been Daniel Jackson contemplating suicide, I would have been yelling at the TV, and then probably cried some.
Anyway, it's unfortunate that these shows seemed to get axed prematurely. DA only got 2 seasons, which I guess is better than the not-quite 1 season Firefly had. It seems that if the idea is too original (female genetic super-soldier in post-apocalyptic America, a western set in space sometime in the future, etc) the show gets axed in favour of more generic things like CSI, Law & Oder, more CSI, another Law & Order, NCIS (which is CSI except set in the Navy), CSI the third, and one more Law & Order, just to make sure all bases are covered. Oh, and don't forget Crossing Jordan (which I won't say too much about, coz I actually don't mind it. Woody, he just cracks me up), Bones, Without a Trace, Cold Case, Close to Home and all the other shows that have basically the same theme, but with different characters. And if we don't want to watch one of those, we can watch reality TV, which, for the record, I have hated ever since the first season of Big Brother aired here in oz.
So I'm only a little bitter at the total lack of viewing choice, especially since our television stations here in oz are CRAP and put the good shows (like Stargate) on at 11 o'clock or later, if at all. What's with that?
Hmm, well, I didn't come here for a rant about the total crapness of TV at the moment (too late) I came to post my TTT. Of course there's some spoilers ahead, so only read on if you've already seen the following TV shows/Movies, or don't really care. Enjoy!

10) Clueless – Ahh, the movie that was like the holy grail to a generation of teens in the 90s. I love this movie. It’s so dumb, but it’s so full of morals. Has any teen movie matched it since? They’ve tried, but never succeeded. In this movie, it's the moment when Cher realizes she’s in love with Josh, her goofy kind-of step brother that I love. I don’t think he was officially her step-brother, but he was something anyway. She was walking along the street, after failing her driving test spectacularly, and then realized that she loved him. It was such a classic, cute moment, one of the reasons I love to watch it over and over.

9) Buffy 3.32 Amends – After coming back from hell, Angel is even more tortured and brooding than he already was (who knew such a thing was possible?). He decides the world and Buffy would be better off if he was dead, so he goes to a lookout over Sunnydale and waits for the sun to come up. Buffy catches up with him and gives him hell for being weak and wanting to take the easy way out, and lots of crying goes on for both of them (meanwhile, these guys spent a lot of time crying), and then suddenly it starts to snow. It’s Christmas morning and there’s been a freak cold-snap and snowstorm, the first ever in Sunnydale, California’s history. So I guess it wasn’t Angel’s fate to die that day. In the end, Angel and Buffy walk down the street hand in hand as the snow falls about them and a radio announcer states that there won’t be any sun out all day. It was a beautiful moment.

8) Angel 1.8 I Will Remember You – It was a hard choice between this ep and In the Dark, 1.3, where Angel is given a ring that makes him immortal, which means he could actually have a half decent life with Buffy, except he chooses his density over Buffy and smashes the ring. Anyway, I chose this ep because after Angel gets some sort of demon blood on him and becomes human, and spending (I think) one day with Buffy as a ‘real’ boy, in the end, Angel realizes he has to go back in time and make like the day never happened. I think maybe because Buffy gets killed. I don’t remember what the reason was. All I remember is that the fates send him back in time to do things over and though he remembers the day he and Buffy spent together, she doesn’t. In the end, after he has his do-over and doesn’t become humanized, he and Buffy have an argument and Buffy leaves in a huff (she did that a lot!). This moment was both sad and poignant, and obviously one of my favorite Angel moments.

7) Bend It Like Beckham – I love this movie. Not only because Jonathan Rhys Meyers is so hot in it, but because it was really good for a lot of different reasons (too many of which there are to list). The moment I love the most is when Joe goes to Jess’ house to try and talk her parents into letting her play football. It’s so adorable, and we realize that maybe Joe feels a bit more for Jess than just that of a coach.

6) Farscape 1.22 Family Ties (I think, sorry if I got this one wrong!) – Crichton’s finally caught Crais, who’s been chasing Crichton all over the galaxy, trying to kill him. Crais is locked up, and Crichton’s sitting on the outside of the cell, asking a few questions. The moment that really gets me is when Crichton says (and I don’t remember exactly what the wording was) “Do you know what it’s like, having someone hunt you down? I just want to know why, why can’t you just leave us alone?” As he asks this, a tear runs down his cheek. Tough guys who cry? I have the biggest soft spot in the world for. It gets me every single time. Like the ep in Supernatural where Dean and Sam have to go back to their home town because they realize there’s something evil in their old house. Dean calls his dad for help, and of course gets the message service because Daddy-Winchester doesn’t want to be found. As Dean says, “Dad, I just don’t know what to do.” he’s got tears in his eyes and I fall in love with him just a little bit more. Oh look, I just have to make that a point all of its own.

5) Supernatural 1.9 Home – See above where Dean is crying. Ok, he’s not crying. He’s almost crying. But still, we all saw those tears!

4) Pride and Prejudice, The New One. At first I didn’t like Kiera Knightly as Lizzy. At first I just didn’t like this version. I didn’t like that they’d shortened six or so brilliant episodes into a couple of short hours. But when I stopped comparing it to the exceptional BBC series, I realized that I liked it all on its own. My favorite moment in this movie is where they’re at the ball, and D’Arcy asks Lizzy to dance. Of course for most of the dance, they’re snipping at each other, but towards the end, the rest of the room falls away and suddenly they’re dancing all alone. It was beautiful, and very well done by the writers/creators.

3) Stargate SG1 4.18 The Light – This was one of the great SG eps, for all the character interactions and dynamics. On an abandoned planet, an SG team finds some sort of palace. Of course Daniel goes off to get his archaeological fix, but little do they know, there’s something on the planet that causes people to become addicted. Daniel comes back after one of the team he was with killed themselves while earth-side. Daniel soon becomes quite obviously agitated and they send him home for some R&R (duh!). The next morning he doesn’t turn up for the trip back and Jack goes to his apartment looking for him. Jack finds him outside, hanging off the wrong side of the balcony. This scene was a great Jack/Daniel moment, while Jack is trying to talk Daniel off the railing, however it’s not the one I’m writing for. Later in the ep, once SG1 has been to the planet to try and work out what caused the problem, Jack is beside Daniel’s bed, while Daniel is in a coma from withdrawal. Jack is starting to show signs of agitation himself. Things go from bad to worse when Daniel flat-lines and Jack makes the snap decision to take him back to the planet. As they’re wheeling the gurney down the corridors, Dr Fraser is doing CPR to keep Daniel alive until they can get him through the gate. In the Gateroom, Jack hauls Daniel over his shoulders and then runs through the Stargate. When they arrive on the other side, there’s a tense moment while Jack tries to bring Daniel around. But luckily Daniel’s not dead (I would say ‘of course he’s not dead,’ but he does die/leads people to believe he’s dead several times over the course of the seasons!). As I said, this ep was particularly good for building the relationships between all the SG1 team member, but this particular scene was the pinnacle of Jack and Daniel’s friendship, which I think was somewhat shoved out of the way in later seasons for the whole Jack/Sam thing. Interestingly enough, this was also the point where a lot of the Jack/Daniel gay-undercurrent hype was going on. But don’t get me started on that again, just go read my Supergay Supernatural part 1 and part 2 entries from earlier this month.

2) Supernatural 1.22 Devil’s Trap – Dean, Sammy and Daddy-Winchester (who I always call Daddy-Winchester, in case you haven't noticed, because I can never remember his name. I think its John. Yes? I don’t know, I’ll just stick with Daddy-Winchester) have just had their butts kicked by the yellow-eyed-demon (aka Vlandach, see Supernatural Playthings entry). Daddy-Winchester got captured and Dean and Sam had to set off a fire alarm and dress up as firemen to get in to rescue him (and I could say something about Sam and Dean dressing up as firemen, but I won’t). Now, Dean’s not stupid, he checked with the holy-water to make sure there wasn’t a demon in Daddy-Winchester before they untied him, but nothing happened, and they thought the coast was clear. So the three of them drive to the freakin’ middle of nowhere, to some shack, to hole up and plan what they’re going to do next. Then they have some manly, heart to hearts, except Dean realizes that something’s not quite right with Daddy-Winchester. Mainly because Dean used one of the special kill-anything-evil bullets and Daddy-Winchester barely had a word to say about it. Because Dean knows that Daddy-Winchester would actually ‘tear him a new one’ for wasting the bullet, he realizes that it’s not Daddy-Winchester, but in fact Vlandach. I have much respect for the actor who played Daddy-Winchester, when he was Denny in Grey’s Anatomy, he was brilliant (see next week’s list of Top Ten TV Shows/Movies That Made Me Cry). But as Daddy-Winchester, he just seemed to suck the life out of every scene he was in. I don’t know what was going on, but something wasn’t working there. Anyhoo, my point is, that despite the fact that Daddy-Winchester’s character sucked, when he became Vlandach and started beating up on the boys and tauting them, he was great. He just did evil really, really well. And then of course they went through the moment of lucidity where Daddy-Winchester begged Sammy to shoot him and end it all. And then the ep and the season finished by them being hit by a truck. Obviously I just can’t say enough about it, but it was very fantastic.

1) Serenity – In the club where Mal and the crew are lining up some good honest work, River comes in and her ‘trigger’ is set off. She goes terminator and starts kicking butt left, right and centre. She’s even able to get one up on Jayne. Mal manages to get through the fray (using Jayne getting beat up as a cover) and grabs his gun just in time to bring it round at the same time as River gets her hands on a gun. For a tense moment they face each other on opposite ends of the guns, until Simon appears and using a special word, puts River to sleep. The scene was great. Although throughout the series we get to realize that there is a lot about River we don’t know, the whole little-River-kicking-ass scenario was great, and tied in with the ending of the movie really well.

So there it is. Tune in next week for Top Ten TV Shows/Movies That Made Me Cry...

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